It has been almost a month since I posted here. For a change, I thought I will publish my first post on negative manifestations, something I have been excelling at the past couple weeks.
If you have been following my blog, you will know that I believe, that what ever we have in our life right now is something that we have invited in, be it good or bad. If you take a look around your house/apartment/room, you can see what your state of mind is. What ever is around you, is a physical manifestation of what ever is within. This is the theory I choose to believe in. A couple weeks ago due to miscommunication and misunderstanding, I got myself into a really negative thought pattern. I would like to point out, that I did not have a bad DAY that snowballed into a bad month, but I had a bad-couple-minutes in a day, that I chose to milk the whole day. This in-turn turned into two days, three days and I ended up having a terrible week. I could not shake it off. I wanted to keep my Einstein wands closed on purpose, I went into my cave and wanted to hide there for the rest of my life and not come out ever. I made that my ‘comfort zone’. I would go to work, smile and laugh and pretend all is well, but my insides were crashing and burning. I thought alright, at the end of that terrible week, will lie an amazing weekend. I got out of bed one Saturday and started cleaning my apartment. I caught a cold a the end of the day and I blamed my cat’s fur for it. Sunday it got worse. And I was sure it was something more than an allergy. I got sick and sicker and I suffered all week. This was the first week I had taken more than a day off at work and I had signed up for a lot of volunteering around town. I could barely move and keep my eyes open, and even though I had my apartment set to a million degrees, everything I touched felt like it was made of ice. I started thinking about all the terrible things that could happen, all that can go wrong, and eventually I got to a point where all I could think about was death.
Then I thought, is this something that I have manifested? That cannot be right. How can I think myself into sickness?!? Is that even a thing? Is that even possible? So, if the theory is I thought myself into sickness, it should be just as easy to think myself out of it right? I started reading about all the people who ‘miraculously’ cured themselves of Cancer and other diseases when the doctors wrote them off as incurable. Alright F.P. , Prove to me that I can think myself out of this cycle I have gotten myself into. The next day I went to work, and when I came back home, I saw something in my mailbox. I opened it, it was from India. When I opened that package I broke into tears and cried uncontrollably. It was a book that I have been meaning to purchase, “Thank & Grow Rich” by Pam Grout. It was sent to me by my sisters. That second, I thought, I chose to keep my wands closed and look where it got me. Its time to start opening them up. I called my sisters, I thanked them. I called my mom I thanked her for helping them mail it to me. I told them how perfect of a timing it was, that this book made it to me. Slowly, one smile after another, I started calling the rest of the people that love me, I called my friends, I spoke to them, not about the terrible couple weeks I have been having, but about how amazing the new book is, what is going right in their lives, how magical this season of giving is, how many opportunities have presented themselves to me, to smile 🙂 and here I am , 4 weeks later back to being myself 🙂
Yes, negative manifestation is a thing. What ever you put out there, is what will come back to you. Yes, it is hard to accept and acknowledge that you DID invite the bad stuff into your life as well. But I believe, that nothing is ever as bad as it seems & a ‘Bad Thing’ it is just a blessing- in disguise 🙂
‘Tis the season to be jolly, ‘Tis the season of love and giving. You smiling at a stranger on the street, or picking up a piece of trash and putting it in the bin, or helping someone carry something might not go viral on YouTube and get you on the Ellen show, but it sure sends out good vibrations into the universe. & what ever you give, you receive in multiple folds 🙂
Merry Christmas/Happy Hanukkah/Happy holidays to all and as my sister said, 2016 was just us warming up, getting ready … 2017 – Here we come 🙂 ❤